Shiraz & Kimchi

Apart from being sick and making sense of office politicking, I don't really see any difference between April and May 2008. All I seem to be doing is to get myself feeling sicker and more exhausted.

As the big day draws ever closer, I find myself getting more and more skittish when people ask about preparations. I know everyone is excited and happy for good reason, but somehow it all equates to additional pressure. I know I'm blessed to have so many people want to be involved and I am indeed very, very thankful. But ask me to give a definite time and venue or where to stand, what to do, etc and I freak out because I haven't got a clue. And then later the same day I'll find that I get worried about not having a clue. And so on and so forth >____< style="font-style: italic;">three family fronts, things have not been rosy healthwise. Which serves to explain further why I don't feel very celebratory or excited even though the actual day is so close. In fact there were several whole days I actually felt more like grieving.

Sigh. Growing up is so painful sometimes.

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A number of random people have invaded my Flickr photostream the past two weeks.

They seemingly appear out of nowhere, fave up all my random photos from goodness-knows-when, sometimes I can even tell when a user has gone through ALL my 100+ pages (who knows how they find the time?!), leave comments like "Hey, you look cute, wanna be friends?" or "Hey your hammy looks like my hammy.. can I ask you a question" and then they add me, leaving me with a severely flooded Flickr inbox (288 mails at last login) and a moderately sour aftertaste.

Sure, I'm thankful my account has views and that people actually want to see my photos. But I feel a 'little' obsession can get a bit much.

After some random left me a comment something along the lines of "Hi, I used to have an Asian friend too.. If I get to see her again in this lifetime I'll die happy", I decided to deploy an 'energy saving device': I had a whole bunch of my photos restricted to friends and family only >___< href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/-d/2419293275/" title=""Hello!" Kimchi by hesedetang *, on Flickr">

Shiraz



- 8 May 2008 1:35am -